Sneak Peak!

Some of you may know if you watch my videos on youtube that I am in the midst of writing my first ever novel! I call it project Lockwood rn as a code name and once it get's finished you'll find out why. Here is a sneak peak from chapter one with the main character and a very interesting character...

“You troubled about something?”

“Yup..”

“Have yea tried praying about it?”

I chuckled. “It’s a little hard to think about God when all these bad things are happening,” I was smiling but she could hear the bitterness in my tone. She was thoughtful for a moment. Looking in her eyes I could almost see the gears in her brain turning. Silence reigned for so long that I thought it would be the end of our conversation, but it wasn’t.

“Maybe that’s why he puts us through hard times, to make us think about him. If people were busy all the time, when would they stop and notice God?” She was smiling like she was remembering something sweet from her past. “I think he gives us strange signs to help us grow closer to him. He’ll only give you so much pain that he knows you can handle, because he sees a beautiful you at the end of it.” I only understood some of what Auntie was saying, but I wasn’t very sure. Was she saying that God caused pain because we ignored him? As a child I had felt close to God, and my parents had always been teaching me more and more about him. Then after they died, I resented him a lot for letting it happen, then I started wondering if I maybe deserved it. Finally, I just started ignoring his existence. What Auntie Sage was saying completely contradicted from the loving father I had been taught about. Most likely I didn’t understand what she meant, I often had a hard time listening and understanding people anyway. I watched as she walked along the shoreline, her face radiating a peace I had never known possible. I stayed there at that shoreline for several hours trying to discern what Sage meant. When nightfall came I finally gave up and headed back to my cold metal bed that I called home.